I totally relate. And stream-of-consciousness writing is better than my lame-ass facebook notes about TV shows, so don't feel bad!
I am also a people-pleaser and love feedback. But I have to strain and tell myself that feedback is often a sort of blockage, a way to stopping the momentum, of giving into fear. I'm a big believer in Carol Bly's views on creative process. I have to remind myself not to share with everyone, and remind myself that I'm in charge, no one else is, and when I let others' ideas or perceived views of my work - or god forbid, what might SELL - come into my head, it contaminates my true motivation.
Lately, I'm on one research bender after another, following the things that fascinate me until I'm saturated and sick of them. This seems to give me endless things to teach about and also write about. But I can't seem to write when I'm teaching. Or when the weather is nice. It's a good thing I live in Minnesota.
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Date: 2009-09-02 09:18 pm (UTC)I am also a people-pleaser and love feedback. But I have to strain and tell myself that feedback is often a sort of blockage, a way to stopping the momentum, of giving into fear. I'm a big believer in Carol Bly's views on creative process. I have to remind myself not to share with everyone, and remind myself that I'm in charge, no one else is, and when I let others' ideas or perceived views of my work - or god forbid, what might SELL - come into my head, it contaminates my true motivation.
Lately, I'm on one research bender after another, following the things that fascinate me until I'm saturated and sick of them. This seems to give me endless things to teach about and also write about. But I can't seem to write when I'm teaching. Or when the weather is nice. It's a good thing I live in Minnesota.