Reality check

Ever since I started this job I'm at, I've felt a little shaky in terms of how my performance was being viewed. I mean, I knew I wasn't a horrible employee...I get there early most days, get everything in on time, and get along with everyone in my department. But as far as quality of my work, I didn't have a clue whether the things I was writing were effective in their goals, or if I was blazing a trail of innovation in the world of educational marketing. So today I met with my boss to determine exactly that. As it turns out, I'm doing alright, but boss lady suggested I slow down a little. See the thing with me is that I get a little paranoid about efficiency (I think it comes from my last job, where everything was equally urgent and needed to be done now now NOW), and will scramble to complete projects when I get a lot of them, just so I don't have a huge backlog piled upon my plate. And I thought that's what was expected, but as it turns out T would rather I take more time on each thing I write, and make sure each one is thought out and targeted toward whatever group it's supposed to reach. I also learned that my proofreading isn't always as perfect as I'd like it to be, which I sort of knew, but having it pointed out (even done as gently as it was) really rammed home the fact that I need to brush up. It pains me to know that there's room for improvement in this area, but at least I know that I shouldn't take for granted my co-workers' ability to catch something I let slip by. Gotta remember that this isn't the old job, where between the three of us we were sure to catch everything.

It sucks to know I'm not perfect, but it doesn't suck to know that I'm doing a good job aside from those two things.