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I hesitate to post this...but
Oct. 3rd, 2009 12:58 pmA little less than a week ago, I wrote an entry that included the following statement:
"But as I start my week, I find more than ever that I just want to feel like my life means something. I want to feel like I'm fulfilling my potential. This whole, aimless, drifting, WTF-now dealy is starting to wear out its welcome."
I put that out there, and just like that a couple things happened that helped sharpen my focus, helped restore my confidence ever so slightly, helped me see that there might be light at the end of the tunnel, at least in terms of my worth as a writer, creative and otherwise. I'm not gonna specify, lest I jinx myself, but I just thought it was kind of cool that all it took to turn things around was verbalizing in specific terms what I wanted.
It kind of makes me want to express my desires in other areas, you know? After a deep breath and a long pause, I think I'm gonna:
I want someone really special who I am crazy about to be equally crazy about me. I want to feel loved and supported. And even though I fail at being a typical girl, I wouldn't object to experiencing a whirlwind romance sometime soon.
There, I said it. I'm gonna try my best not to feel too embarrassed about it. I think I've been watching and reading too much teenage melodrama lately. It's slowly warping my brain. ;)
"But as I start my week, I find more than ever that I just want to feel like my life means something. I want to feel like I'm fulfilling my potential. This whole, aimless, drifting, WTF-now dealy is starting to wear out its welcome."
I put that out there, and just like that a couple things happened that helped sharpen my focus, helped restore my confidence ever so slightly, helped me see that there might be light at the end of the tunnel, at least in terms of my worth as a writer, creative and otherwise. I'm not gonna specify, lest I jinx myself, but I just thought it was kind of cool that all it took to turn things around was verbalizing in specific terms what I wanted.
It kind of makes me want to express my desires in other areas, you know? After a deep breath and a long pause, I think I'm gonna:
I want someone really special who I am crazy about to be equally crazy about me. I want to feel loved and supported. And even though I fail at being a typical girl, I wouldn't object to experiencing a whirlwind romance sometime soon.
There, I said it. I'm gonna try my best not to feel too embarrassed about it. I think I've been watching and reading too much teenage melodrama lately. It's slowly warping my brain. ;)
