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Sep. 5th, 2010 02:09 pmLast night I had a strange dream that transported me back in time to high school and when I awoke I was reminded of a similar, real situation from that point in my life.
The real situation, (trying out for the pom squad) resulted in rejection, which, at the time, was downright devastating because so much of my self esteem was riding on whether or not I was good enough to be one of THOSE girls.
I look back on that experience now, removed enough from the sense of hurt that I felt to see it more objectively.
And you know what's kind of funny? Reflecting on the fact that I'm still here, in spite of (or maybe because of) that and countless other personal and professional rejections, makes me less afraid to pursue something completely unrelated that I've been perceiving as a bit of a long shot.
I mean, yeah, I'll be hurt and disappointed if I get a no.
But better to try and fail than to keep quiet and wonder about what-ifs, right?
That's what I'm going to keep telling myself!
The real situation, (trying out for the pom squad) resulted in rejection, which, at the time, was downright devastating because so much of my self esteem was riding on whether or not I was good enough to be one of THOSE girls.
I look back on that experience now, removed enough from the sense of hurt that I felt to see it more objectively.
And you know what's kind of funny? Reflecting on the fact that I'm still here, in spite of (or maybe because of) that and countless other personal and professional rejections, makes me less afraid to pursue something completely unrelated that I've been perceiving as a bit of a long shot.
I mean, yeah, I'll be hurt and disappointed if I get a no.
But better to try and fail than to keep quiet and wonder about what-ifs, right?
That's what I'm going to keep telling myself!
