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Withdrawal
May. 12th, 2007 10:14 amI feel like I'm all dried up in terms of subject matter on here. I guess that's because usually my posts consist of me venting about something and lately I haven't had that much to complain about.
It doesn't help that I'm back in cubicle land again as well, where I am a lot more hesitant to visit non-work-related sites because my activities are viewable to anyone who walks past. I've been told that I don't have restricted access on my browser, but I also don't want to give off the impression that I'm this big slacker who does nothing but fuck around on the Internets all day. I've been feeling compelled to prove myself to everyone I work with, and I'm not sure where that comes from because they all seem to have the utmost confidence in my abilities. I guess it's a result of still being in training and not having the opportunity to do much more than sit and wait for instructions. I appreciate that I can ease my way in to my daily tasks, since the process to complete them is super involved and has a steep learning curve, but I'm also somewhat impatient to dive in since my busy season is coming up in about a month and I want to get a flow going. This will all be resolved sometime this week though, because my schedule has me starting to draft letters by Thursday or Friday.
Aside from that, I've noticed that this new job has got me feeling more like a writer than ever before. My co-workers have shown a sincere interest in the work I do when I'm not there, and talking with them about it and explaining it has gotten me more excited about doing it. I guess that's because I feel like I could share new published work with them, show it off and get them to read it. I probably shouldn't need an audience outside of myself to feel compelled to write, but the fact is, I do. Shy and retiring I may be, but beneath the quiet exterior lies a meglomaniacal attention-whore just begging to be let out. :)
It doesn't help that I'm back in cubicle land again as well, where I am a lot more hesitant to visit non-work-related sites because my activities are viewable to anyone who walks past. I've been told that I don't have restricted access on my browser, but I also don't want to give off the impression that I'm this big slacker who does nothing but fuck around on the Internets all day. I've been feeling compelled to prove myself to everyone I work with, and I'm not sure where that comes from because they all seem to have the utmost confidence in my abilities. I guess it's a result of still being in training and not having the opportunity to do much more than sit and wait for instructions. I appreciate that I can ease my way in to my daily tasks, since the process to complete them is super involved and has a steep learning curve, but I'm also somewhat impatient to dive in since my busy season is coming up in about a month and I want to get a flow going. This will all be resolved sometime this week though, because my schedule has me starting to draft letters by Thursday or Friday.
Aside from that, I've noticed that this new job has got me feeling more like a writer than ever before. My co-workers have shown a sincere interest in the work I do when I'm not there, and talking with them about it and explaining it has gotten me more excited about doing it. I guess that's because I feel like I could share new published work with them, show it off and get them to read it. I probably shouldn't need an audience outside of myself to feel compelled to write, but the fact is, I do. Shy and retiring I may be, but beneath the quiet exterior lies a meglomaniacal attention-whore just begging to be let out. :)
